Tuesday, September 11, 2007

so easy...

Hey, this is my blog and I can write what ever I want. How beautiful. I want to share this with you, although this could be considered rather personal, but what the heck.

It's in the middle of the night and I find myself sitting on my balcony wanting to talk to god. It's so much easier to believe in god sometimes, so much easier to let there be a religion. Honestly, I think we are simply not ready yet to live without a god. Science, knowledge and even reality aside, our weakness brings us straight to the powers beyond us and how beautiful is it to find a person at the other end. Some religious people want to deny it a little bit, the idea that even they picture god as a person. A higher power, a being of sorts, the creator. I honestly don't care, it's much rather like speaking to my father or a father to us all. What wonderful savety, what wonderful retreat. And I always find myself repeating the same word three times to begin my conversation with him: Sir, sir, sir. Like I'm tapping on god's shoulder, asking for a little attention. Naive? You know, yes. It's what we are, because all the atheism in the world as of now is still nothing but a desperate denial. We want to know, we want to be real and life in a world we understand. Floating through space, the universe, which we accept to know only little of, yet, science and awareness gives us so much security. But at the end, if we're really true to ourselves, don't we find ourselves speaking to god every now and then. Even while we smile at ourselves doing so.
If we do not ruin our world, if we not ruin our justification to exist in it, we will grow and one day we may not need to turn to a god anymore. But not just yet, not yet.
See, and I'm kind of laughing at myself right now, but god is the almighty, the one that listens at anytime of the day, at any place and for every reason. Within us and around us, where ever we want to feel his presents. Yes, yes, you can say her presents just as well, but that's nothing but a game. It doesn't really matter. What matters is that I've shared with you a moment of sincerity just out of the deep dark blue of the night.

God bless! :)