Distractions of the flesh

It seems as if we were the first creatures on earth to become selfaware. As that we behave like infants, being preoccupied with the idea of figuring out ourselves. We're not yet far enough in our understanding to focus beyond oneself. To recognize what we have to do to contribute or even develop our personal best in order to stear towards a best possible accomplishment of us all, this still seems inaccessible to our minds.
As long as we can't acknowledge the whole for ourselves, we rely on others, the system and it's propagators, to tell us what to do. So much so that we even rely on them to tell us what to believe. We don't gather knowledge, but swallow instructions. And all this simply because our selfawareness does not provide a revelation in regards to our purpose.

I went on a journey to allow myself to follow my real desires, the activities that lead to accomplishments that bring me true joy. I was waiting for the right moment to begin disregarding the advice of those, who pointed into a different direction. That right moment came with a certain clarity in regards to what I knew I loved to do. But as an artist, people alway give you advice away from arts, which might sound like a different story, inapplicable to the rest of us. But I don't believe so. I think it merely has to be adapted.

As I began to follow my wishes, knowing that they meant a pursuit of constant self-improvement, I listened to every advice that could help navigate into the life I had to live, even if it wasn't immediately useful or sometimes even out of context. In this way I was already accepting the common spirit, the cooperation of humans by advice coming from somewhere else and somewhen.

Anyway, the more we can rely on wisdom in our free will, the more we recognize that self-determination feeds into the ultimate group-determination, the more we can rely on the advice of others during the process of the discovery of our personal passion and purpose.

In the meantime we always have to gather options as informations and informations as options, finding out like with a happiness sensor, a radar for the field of our true self-application, in which direction we'd like to head. Never confuse the urge to become the best as one that was for yourself. You only count as one of us all and nothing of you remains but that which you've given away!

Just as no math can help us calculate what we will do next, no hope for a state of ours can help us know what we'd do if we reached it. I don't know how best to describe this, but I'm talking about those who fell for the idea of money and monetary riches. It's confusion that leads people into thinking that way. The lack of enlightened logic, one that goes beyond the currently existing system of mankind, leads people to seek refuge in a dream of power and autonomy. As if this state may help them finally realize what they were meant to do. I don't know how to break this cycle of insanity. I am somewhat afraid of thinking about that as long as I am alone, or there are too few people I know to recognize the nature of our dilemma. So all I can do right now as I've been doing for a long time, mostly without knowing, is that my choices can represent an option. Whereby I hope that people realize the difference between solution and method. I'm always talking about method. But enough of all this... ...I need to focus my flesh for a bit! ;-)

First steps into photography...

After a long time of silence I've decided to post something again. I've just started to pick up photography a bit more seriously and bought myself a nice DSLR (Canon 500D/Rebel T1i) and an objective for it (Sigma 18-250mm), nicer than the one from the kit.

I'm still thrilled with my old Casio Exilim EX-Z1050

But the Canon really takes my hobby into a new dimension. Just that I'm not there, yet!

But I'm already treating my images with little respect again, crunching them into a pulp...

Naturally I have a ton more experiments, but those are the ones from yesterday and therefore the most fun to me. I have no idea how any of this will be perceived, but rest assured, I won't quit anything for this, hahaha.

There's actually a lot for me to learn in all of this, aside from the humbling experience to take a nice camera for a walk as I still feel utterly inadequate for it. I'm learning about composition from a different point of view again and get to explore translations of all my former revelations in regards to design somewhere within a frame around nature. Not to mention all the technicalities that I'm still somewhat wrestling with. But it's all tremendous fun!

Earthlings

For thousands of years mankind is being told that it's not from earth. We're being told that we can not sufficiently feed ourselves from that, which nature produces, that we are not part of nature to begin with. We've been brought here by some outside source, be that god or other aliens, or- for the most acknostic people- that we largely outgrew our dependency from nature, evolved beyond its sufficient support. Every angle seems to be covered to make us believe that we can only rely on inventions of some special peers of ours, who devoted their lives to the study which ever field that develops our means of survival. You can't live without the goods from the supermarket, the medicin from the pharmacy, the vehicles from the industries and- most importantly- without money. Nature works against you, parasites, bacteria, virus, plants, insects, animals and even the weather, water and the sun are all out to kill you. The only reason you are still breathing is because other alien beings, namely humans such as yourself, are keeping you alive, protecting you from the harmful planet you've been dropped on. You just need to beg for their money, which then is given to you, so you can give it back to them in order to be save. It doesn't matter if you want to do what you're doing, just as long as you do what seems to be useful to them or at least not harmful and keeps you occupied. Thinking, for example, is a harmful thing to do. What if you had enough time and not enough distraction so that you recognize the insanity of this setup. What if you somehow figured out that you're not an alien?! You may realize that the tomato you just had in your salad, along with all the rest, actually grows voluntarily on this hostile earth. That your oil is from olives or other seeds that also grow on the same soil by the same means. What if you begin to understand that your cat or your dog is almost identically to yourself in principle. Skull, spinalchord, ribs, arms, legs, hands, feet, heart, liver, kidneys, intestins, lungs, blood, brains, nails, teeth, hair, skin, sleeping, eating, dumping, communicating, playing and a real appreciation for feeling safe. Maybe the same aliens where putting those on earth, too. The bible says so for sure. In fact, the bible did a big mistake, because it had the same alien put all of life on earth, aside from putting earth to where it is now along with all the rest. So eventually people saw no reason not to believe that nature could give us all we need and used the herbs and energies we could receive for free. Soon enough they were burned on the stake for doing so and the bible had to be taught differently again. It still says the same things, but it's made to be understood in a different way. The establishment made yet again use of a distinction between man, animal and plants. While the alien boss put all of it together, his sons would mingle with his creation and produce our race, alien to his own creation, back into the mix. Again, if you fail to believe that story, you're being given a bunch of other options, none of which you can proof personally, but there's at least one thing in there that sounds plausible enough to detach you from the simple and beautiful truth. We're all children of earth. We have developed and still are developing by the ingenuity of a system for transformation that has an ultimative agenda, which we can only speculate about, but which permits us to recognize that we are in a perfect symbiosis with all of life, most likely not just that on earth.
Here's a dramatic example you may think about, even if I have not taken the time to go into the exact details of it, but it's a raw concept for your understanding. Cancer is merely a failure of our immune system. Roughly speaking, if your immune system is in perfect or at least very good condition, you should not encounter any tumors in your body. Here's what happens within you every single moment of your life. As a cell requires duplication for the renewal or reparation of any system of your body, it essentially clones the DNA string it holds and passes it on into the newly creating cell. This cloning process is not always perfect. When something goes wrong and the new DNA string is faulty, your immune system recognizes it and flushes out the whole new cell to make way for another attempt. When, however, your immune system is compromised and certain parts of your body are producing wrongly cloned cells more frequently than the immune system can flush out, it will miss that chance and the newly created faulty cell, still able to procreate, will do so. Faulty growths are happening. What the medical industry does to you then is a stunning thing. They make you go through chemotherapy, destroying your immune system almost completely. In this sudden reset, there might be a chance that somehow your system recovers and goes through something like a general maintance run, which may attack the tumors then, if that's what they were thinking, but it essentially is an equivalent to bloodletting, which was yet another beautiful idea of the medical establishments in earlier days. Cutting into the tumor also risks spreading the faulty cells throughout your body, while the weak immune system then won't be able to fight it elsewhere either and more growths start happening. What you should do instead is to heal up your immune system, target it directly with the best boost you can get. One example are intraveniously injected high amounts of vitamine C along side a change in diet that supplies your cells with all the necessary material to neatly copy themselves as well as a good supply of energy for that process. Plenty of fruits and vegetables give you those supplies, while some herbs my help targetting specific deficiencies. At the same time you should stay away from foods or habits that would harm your system. Depending on how timely you switch into this gear, you may heal yourself from cancer, even if it already has given you some tumors. Should a tumor be lifethreatening already, it still appears most important to ramp up your immune response before cutting into it. But I don't know these things, because I have not devoted my life to this research. Others do that already and it's wise for you to learn from them. But they are not too easy to find and often ridiculed. They didn't buy into the alien theory and are fortunate enough that burning at the stake is not so trendy anymore. So while they're still alive, you may consult them. Start by looking for Gary Null, for example. Although I can only hope he forgives me, in case I made some dramatic mistakes in my above explanation. It's merely something I have deduced from various things I've read, combined with my imagination. That is our true power and our true fault. We learn from each other, but if we're being mislead we may run into a dangerous or even deadly direction. But we also learn from ourselves, if we focus on our instincts. Every creature on this planet seems to be born with enough information to survive, given the "normal" circumstances. The same goes for us. How far it goes is a different story, but I wouldn't be surprised, if only minimal guidance would help us into a healthy life with few educational hick-ups.
Our society, however, has given us a deadly environment, as removed from nature as possible and as filled with hazards for every part of ourselves as possible. The moment we plunge into life, we are being lead into the way of life it promotes. Very little chance is given to us to wake up out of the nonsense, recognize the abuse and regain our understanding for what we are and what we need to do. Nature still wants to be our driving force, but we deny it to ourselves. Our brilliance, our creativity, our sense of responsibility, our compassion, our curiosity, in various degrees it's all part of everyone of us and it makes us want to do things. And not just procreation, as the establishment wants you to believe. It's not murdering either, or laziness, or uselessness, or sadism, or hate, or stupidity. Those are all the imposed traits we are being manipulated by. Certainly there are weaknesses, but that's where our collaboration, our abiltiy to work with each other, comes into play. Natures plan was to recognize the power of group building organisms. From the lowest levels to the highest complexities, it's always been about cooperation. But not a forced cooperation, but a freely discoverable and relatable cooperation. It does not have a boss, but a common goal. It has guidance that emerges out of sharing revelations. Ideas that are not entirely beneficial can be used as inspiration to find an even better solution. Hardly any idea comes from a no-need situation. That means, since we yet have to master all we really have to master, new ideas will always be necessary.
But right now, as we've been pushed out of our original understandings, we may need to find some old ideas again, too. Nature is a giant symbiosis and within it we find all that we need to exist. It's not just a very old idea, but a truth we may never be able to entirely detach from. Eventually we will take all of nature with us, where ever we may go, but for now it's important to realize: You are a creature from earth. You are nature. The fabric you are made of is the fabric that will be returned to it, but in the meantime you should embrace the billions of years nature as transformed to arrive at you as a proud result. You carry with you the value of an entire planet, you are one amazing incarnation of earth, but so is everyone and every other form of life on it and you should recognize and respect it. Also know, that you are claiming the highest of responsibilities, if you decide to kill something. At this moment you assume to be a judge of earth. Can you understand life beyond yourself? Do you even know, who or what you are? Defending your life and that of others is a noble choice, but even then any murdering is a sign of catastrophical weakness. You should always know, at least, that you are the weakest one in any situation that makes you kill anyone, any part of nature. That which has died by your hand has not been given the chance to exhibit greater weakness than yourself.

The apex of "me"

Now here's maybe the wildest post I've made so far and it may well remain the wildest for a long time.

I believe we are rolling through the apex of the "me"-concept of life's approach to higher intelligence. I've been talking about that for a while, but- even if just for myself- I thought it's time to write this down as matters appear to become more and more terrifying or- at the very least- confusing.

Most of life, plants and animals alike, exist by means of interactions with and awareness of the environment and content around them. Their selfawareness seems to be limted for the purpose of maintenance and some adaptation at best. But during the course of evolution major catastrophes eliminated run after run of life's transformation ideas. The lucky or the clever ones marked the beginning of a new attempt.
In our current round the inherited power of a creature has given way to a perfectly new concept. Learning by relating the environment to ourselves and vise versa. The concept of "me". What does this do to me, what can I do to it. But the real confusions began when the question had risen: "Who am I?" or less gramatically correct but more percisely:"What is me?".
Aside from not finding any proper answer, we've offered this confusion to allow for all sorts of manipulation from others and to others from ourselves.

We found out our weaknesses and the desire to be "more" in order to find for ourselves a higher viability to survive or represent a valuable strain of nature. Naivety presented a gate for an ever increasing corruption of the initially ingenius appearing concept of "me". Most people, as they are followers- admittedly or not- wanted to be like those with power. For a long time in our own evolution that meant a great way to improve rapidly. Someone figured out how to do something with a tool, others wanted to learn that, too, and so forth. Through the entire process we appear to have developed a kind of wish to be something special. Deep within ourselves we instinctively pursued the concept of evolution, knowingly or not, that the preservation of our own strain would proof viability above any potential appearance to the contrary. Who ever came at the right time at the right place into the right woman (LOL, sorry!) would find himself in a dominant position and would create a dominant line of family. A sometimes not so hidden battle for family dominance emerged.

While in the beginning of mankind's dominion it was very clear to realize that cooperation has been the key to success against adversities, this concept started to degrade and deform with the distortion of the "me"-concept over time. At the high levels, however, a new incarnation of cooperation had evolved. And that's many thousands of years ago. Cooperation led to larger conventions of humans, settlements. Within such a settlement the rules of the wild began to vanish and people lost their understanding of things their parents took for granted. They even lost their understanding of how to deal with each other and eventually a need for guidelines and rules came to be. That also formulated a new nature of power within or rather above a group. People now had to listen to coordination given by someone or some group that demanded more and more tribute on top of the generally required respect. Status became relevant to define the quality of "me". Common people began to satisfy their urge for self respect by simulating the appearance of those in power. Wealth itself became a symbol sometimes even more than the tool itself that it would normally represent.

For the last few hundred years it appears as though we've been deliberately pushed apart by turning the concept of "me" against ourselves more than ever before.

In the first big round of "our" time it has been conformation. Look at yourself and make sure you are in line with everybody else. That went up to a breaking point, when the abuse of it became all to appearant through several wars and imposed restrictions when other options became more and more clear to the masses. I might be skipping around wildly, but currently we are or have been in a round that features individualism as a symbol for independence, which has always been a sign of power. That idea is incredibly successful when it's about separating us from each other and everything else, actually. Entertainingly enough it is actually still conformism, but under a new label with the added bonus of officially "giving a damn" about the neighbors, so to say. Naturally we're losing the power of the collective. We lose trust and faith in each other. We've been separated from nature hundreds of years ago by all kinds of religions. I suppose in an effort to satisfy the aquired desire to be special we've allowed ourselves to be defined as such through the proposal of our creation by a higher being. And because of our limited imagination it had to be something we couldn't see to avoid any disproof. And because to establish a hierachy it had to be either an earthly incarnation of a god or at last a messenger of and to the diety.
Again mankind's naivety helped to keep this afloat until the age of information combined with the encouragement of greed, which might have been nothing but a side effect of the abuse of the "me".

So where are we now?

Made to look out mainly for ourselves we're incapable of trusting each other and are looking at what ever is the next best higher power that readily presents itself to us through all media. It leads our thoughts and connects us in just the way and for just the purpose it wants. It feeds us with a manifestation of greed that it knows how to handle. I believe that most of us don't know anymore how to even ask for "who am I" in regards to existence, but only in regards to who ever sees them. "Who am I" amongst my peers. Not "Who am I" as a being to nature, the planet or the universe for that matter (hehe). (side note: musicians might know that a bit better after reading their contracts! LOL).

I will now try to tell you who you are and you have to pull yourself together for a moment. Take a deep breath, please!

Every one of us is a product of transformation of the whole. The whole being life on earth. We are nothing but an incarnation of organic existence with the mission to proof our ability to function as a whole, not as an individual. If we don't understand that we're nothing more than a collection of smaller lifeforms that has an involuntary union in form of our bodies, controlled by several centers of instructions, including our brains, we shall not survive. If we don't worship our privilege to participate as another source of revelation and contribution to the whole, we shall not survive. If we don't recognize with pride to be the sibling of each piece of grass, there's no survival for us. You are life on earth and you're but a moment within its transformation. Much like roots weave their way through the ground, this transformation makes decisions as to where to turn to next. A dead end for a root is only the dead end for a direction and in every way we- as we find ourselves today- represent a direction more a required or sustainable concept. There is no real "me". It is a tool of nature to guide thinking to the next level.

The level after this may well respect "us" more than itself, because a healthy self-maintenance becomes a given again. We won't feed each other with poisenous junk for "personal" gain. We don't trick each other with self-destructing temptations for "personal" gain. Joy and pleasure are the natural reward of knowing to give all you can give to find yourself in a healthy, save and sustainable commune. Guidelines will replace rules, because the "we" would not see an advantage to harm itself, but would want to know how to improve conditions for the whole. And it's not like we weren't capable of doing just that just now! It's not like there wasn't enough food, shelter, knowledge and imagination to get this off the ground. We just have to allow ourselves to be deprogrammed from the insane "devolution" of an initially ingenius concept that was "me".

I don't know where to start other than sharing my thoughts with you. Those are difficult thoughts that are even more difficult to share properly. I can't tell if I have managed to express them understandably. But I'm one of us that knows these thoughts belong to all of us and maybe we all can help to find even more understandable ways to explain them and to continue developing them, of course. Don't forget, there's always room for a joke or two, because humor goes a long way to deal with the crap we've let ourselves ride into. But it's about looking forward. I know many of you may react allergically to such phrazes as the following, but the first best thing you can do is to begin to recognize love as the emotional feedback from knowing that we all are a whole altogether with every kind of life. Forgive those, who were born into the wrong ideas and can't leap out of their degeneration, because somehow nothing appears to oppose their reign effectively. Begin by waking up to simple revelations on how to feed your own cells properly and teach or share what you've learned. Celebrate the power you find by knowing that you are not alone. You can only be seperated by the wrong ideas, but as a being you can never be alone.

But be warned, too! We are as everything else will ever be in life's reviewing session and can be layed off just as easily as we were conceived.

The unknown beauty and power of diversity...

I'm so sorry, so deeply sorry that I have to tell these things or feel like having to tell these things, expecting that people may not be truely aware of this. It's the beauty and power of diversity not of nature, but of human culture as a part of it.

For most of us have grown up in a single society, a single type of culture, even if traces of others may have drippled into it, through immigrants or the curiosity of some amongst us. Often it is more a matter of superficial sensation that satisfies most people's glance into another culture, even settling for a confirmed stereotype, but never with the courage to submerge their minds into them, trying to recognize the joys, the challenges, the social exchanges and curiosities that formed their values. If we were to fish deeply into the heart of each original culture, we'd find fundamental values we naturally share, but their incarnations reveal just how brilliant people adapted to the requirements in each part of this world to persue them, where ever those real values have a chance to shine through all the madness that is currently committed.
The closer we come to these values, aside from nutritional and shelter needs, be it love and connectivity, the more we experience them, the more we feel freedom, clarity in our choices and faith in each other. Even the most endearing societies can't prevent some idiots from emerging here and their, gangsters and otherwise flawful individuals, but the majority normally can only exist as part of a loving community. Hence it's generally able to control the amount of foul apples and even have some joy in helping to integrate them again or keeping them at bay.

But before I leave this original train of thoughts, I just want to send a little spark into our collective consciousness to ignite the true revelation that every single culture is a human communal solution to have life function in different regions on our planet and that they all have some form of original tradition that goes beyond modern religion and systems, which, if we only paid some more attention, spells freedom, compassion, empathy and actually common productivity to survive with a proper amount of joy, inevitable moments of pain and - when really needed- hope.

so easy...

Hey, this is my blog and I can write what ever I want. How beautiful. I want to share this with you, although this could be considered rather personal, but what the heck.

It's in the middle of the night and I find myself sitting on my balcony wanting to talk to god. It's so much easier to believe in god sometimes, so much easier to let there be a religion. Honestly, I think we are simply not ready yet to live without a god. Science, knowledge and even reality aside, our weakness brings us straight to the powers beyond us and how beautiful is it to find a person at the other end. Some religious people want to deny it a little bit, the idea that even they picture god as a person. A higher power, a being of sorts, the creator. I honestly don't care, it's much rather like speaking to my father or a father to us all. What wonderful savety, what wonderful retreat. And I always find myself repeating the same word three times to begin my conversation with him: Sir, sir, sir. Like I'm tapping on god's shoulder, asking for a little attention. Naive? You know, yes. It's what we are, because all the atheism in the world as of now is still nothing but a desperate denial. We want to know, we want to be real and life in a world we understand. Floating through space, the universe, which we accept to know only little of, yet, science and awareness gives us so much security. But at the end, if we're really true to ourselves, don't we find ourselves speaking to god every now and then. Even while we smile at ourselves doing so.
If we do not ruin our world, if we not ruin our justification to exist in it, we will grow and one day we may not need to turn to a god anymore. But not just yet, not yet.
See, and I'm kind of laughing at myself right now, but god is the almighty, the one that listens at anytime of the day, at any place and for every reason. Within us and around us, where ever we want to feel his presents. Yes, yes, you can say her presents just as well, but that's nothing but a game. It doesn't really matter. What matters is that I've shared with you a moment of sincerity just out of the deep dark blue of the night.

God bless! :)

A little something about "people"

Here and there I still find reactions to "people", which exhibit problems with the conclusion it arrives at. The conclusion is that Earth brought forth a creation, which can be called a work of art. Knowledge and experience become the foundation for every new creation. However, the biggest problems appear to be, that some people can't accept the idea, that we weren't made directly by god, that a woman is not just a rip of a man (HAHAHA, sorry) and that snakes and apples weren't deciding the fate of the human race. God and a higher power are very important to a good guidance for human beings, but logic and active thinking has to be just as strong as faith in order to prevent abuse of faith, arising of hate and mindless destructions to each other, based on insignificant differences! While those of you, who have strong faith in god, easily get misled by the earthly powers you've accepted to rule above you, who present you with false pictures of an enemy you wouldn't have, if you knew better, the strength you could have to see and understand the reality was infinitely stronger, if you were to use logic and more active thinking. (what an awefully long line, I apologize).

Anyway, to find out if you are too heavy on the faith side and not strong enough on the side of logic, you just have to listen to your feelings about the "people" clip's conclusion.

Earth, creator of mankind? Earth an artist? Yes, just like a picture you've painted can be directly contributed to your doing. It's not about finding out who had made you or who had made your mother and/or father and so forth. And to make this a little bit easier to understand I wrote this little compact form of an idea...

The world is a vessel that has formed around a stronger object in space called sun. At some point it had reached a certain distance which allowed it to retain a certain amount of material that has collided with it. One type of such material was water. The really magical aspect is how it so happened, that carbon based forms came to split and split again in a seeming effort to transform the landscape. How did this procedure become something we might call a desire?! Relevant mostly is the concept that it is the continueous refinement of that procedure in the quest to make the most successful transformation. Earth, with its very specific parameters, became the plateform for wild and creative transformations we now call evolution! It did in fact try so very many different things that it took hundrets if not thousands of millions of years to arrive at the presents, exhibiting solutions such as humans as the result of it's creativity. Earth is not just a molten core of iron with layers of unorganic material around it, because that's in some form or another almost any planet. Earth is the layer of organic transformations around such a core. We wouldn't call it Earth otherwise. So when I say Earth, I mean probably more the HULL of our planet than anything else. The organic hive we are part of. We could not exist without everything else on the planet. At least at present time we couldn't. Anyway, irrelevant right now, it's far more relevant to realize that it's possible to understand and accept the logic of reality as opposed to escaping into a fantasy world that even justifies murder of other people and ownership and greed and all that crap that ruines intelligent coexistance. Anything that evaluates the quality of one race over another based on their belief is intolerable! However, while evolution appears to have been based on power and superiority when it comes to survival, it also gave us a strength that redefines what power and superiority means! Today it means to realize the meaning of colaboration by working together and exchanging as opposed to greed and exclusion! While the whole world may have been nothing but a cave-painting for millions of years, today we are but much more a complex piece of art with depth and control. Maybe it is just I, who refuses to believe that we are still at best a naive painting, but at least we should understand that it is our intelligence and our decisions, which are the brush for the masterpiece this world may become!