Sunday, September 16, 2018

Path To Understanding

Imagine there was nothing in the beginning, but a sphere out of pure will. Every single place on that sphere was facing nothingness. Within that sphere eternal potential. In an effort to express this potential, this sphere begins to isolate each place on it into cells we may call souls. Each soul is meant to create something where there was nothing as it expands outwards. Each soul has no other agenda than to create freely. But in order to react to neighboring souls, as they weave existence into being, they need a device beyond pure will. This device is the spirit or consciousness. While the soul is eternal as it is but a part of the Source Sphere, which you may call God, if you wished, the spirit is part of the soul and was born in the beginning of each souls journey and therefore each spirit is infinite, since it has a beginning, but no predefined end.
And thus the Source expands with its souls to transform nothingness into creation infinitely. But the longer the journey, the more complex the pattern becomes that the souls weave, lead by will and spirit. And in these complex patterns souls can get trapped. Their spirit cannot find a gap near the direction of its will in the cocoon that has been spun around them. Running in circles, the soul becomes restless and the spirit gets exhausted. It now has to find a new path, which may not align with its original intention, so that it can free itself from the cage of crossroads around it. Only when it can gain a new understanding for what it has to deal with, it can move on freely. And with that experience, the spirit becomes more aware of how to deal with the surrounding souls and can instruct the soul itself more efficiently on how to follow its own creative path.
Some souls may have found their purpose in "directing the traffic", helping others out of such traps. Other souls then carry on with creation and take those "traffic controllers" with them on the journey onward.
There is danger, though, because there come times, when the pattern becomes so chaotic, that some "traffic controllers" become convinced that they need to take full charge of more than just their immediate surroundings. All they know is that management is their mission as part of creation. Thus they try to blind the will of souls around them and dictate their spirit where to go and what to do. Gradually spirit takes over and souls lose access to their will. They surrender to the controllers.

Though no soul will ever lose their will to create, they simply may get deprived of access to it. Each soul has their individual path, always, but it is never independent, because it needs to arrange itself with its surroundings. It must never stop another soul in its tracks, but offer detours, if necessary, or engage in a dance, weaving a whole new pattern together. For each soul is the Source itself, expanding, creating, forging the known out of the unknown.
Once we realize this, we realize two things:
1. You must recognize and follow your will as part of creation!
2. You must recognize the will of others around you, or along your path and allow their paths continuation, ideally cooperating where paths align and providing passage on crossroads without sacrificing either movement!

These may sound like simple rules, but they can very well be tall orders as we need to gain an understanding what it means to provide passage without losing ones own path, or to follow ones own path without making somebody else lose theirs. That's why it is so important to know that we all constantly wish to create as irreplaceable part of creation, that this Will never ceases to exist and that we need to find it within us. But we also need to understand what is going on around us, especially once we found out where we wish to go. Then we can examine what is going on ahead of us and see how we weave our way through it, join a pattern or depart from what became a trap to us.
Take over your spirit by becoming aware. Spirit is Care! If you feel or sense that someone asks you not to care, you know that you are being misled!!! You must care, but it becomes easier the closer you are to finding your direction. Because only then will you find out how much it matters and how much it helps to care. And do not confuse "Care" with "Worry", those are two very different things! I always advice not to worry, but to care and all will come to you.

We all are the Source, we received our higher ego from the place of our origin on the Sphere and our lower ego with the Spirit to guide us with, through and into creation. Physicality is the part of our creating process in which we currently find our consciousness, but it is a very, very dense web of creation and it's the highest known challenge to us to find our way through it and continue contributing to its creation.

Naturally, this is all but a thought model. It's a way for me to illustrate the universal process. So many aspects of it ask for their own model and it is challenging to find anything so universally applicable that it would satisfy all questions. If it was possible, I haven't found it, yet, but sometimes a single model can help to find orientation and become aware again on how to proceed and how to understand what goes on around us.
What makes this particular model so interesting to me is the analogies and observations one can make even for the most confusing qualities of life or the system we are in. It invites illustrations to truly visualize problems and potentially begin looking for solutions.

The will to create is infinite, the power of it is eternal.

Friday, July 06, 2018

A little SciFi vision

Every planet in the universe, that actually is a planet and not the remnant of a cataclysm, has a sun in its center. That is, because the matter of each such living planet manifested through the energy gate we recognize as sun and the plasma it brought forth. Depending on each suns strength and environment, it would allow the various sizes of planets, while the matter it spewed into existence hardened into a hull around it over time. There are, however, suns of different quality, with the strongest of them too powerful to allow for matter to coagulate and therefore not forming a planet, but trapping planets in orbits around them, creating solar systems. All suns are gates and all gates lead to the same source, transcending the concept of location, but not that of time.
All throughout the cosmos, civilizations exist, who have understood this and have managed to link with these suns, forming gateways through the source to any place in existence. While most only conquered travels from planet to planet, few have overcome the power of solar system centers, enabling them to travel with massive armadas at once from one system to another. It takes enormous ambition to do so, and those who dare are rarely benign.
Very few planets have the right conditions to support life on their outside, while virtually all have life inside, facing the central sun. On these special planets, though, life on the outside represents great challenges, but has the rare privilege to see all the stars in the sky at night. It also has the privilege of seeing what comes through the stars and can respond in time, should ever a threat appear. And these threats do appear, cutting short the development of civilizations within, if they can't react in time.
Earth is such a special planet and because of it, it has one of the most ancient civilizations there are, but of the benign kind.
Time and time again, humans on the outside, after having chosen this kind of exile, become weary of the challenges and gradually turn ambitious. Time and time again, they rediscover their roots on the inside and wish to become a greater force of the universe, wishing to forge a gate through the solar center and become conquerors themselves. Time and time again, they have to get subdued and reminded of the real reason and purpose of material existence and who or what they truly are.

"I see the great sun every day, feel its force upon my skin, see its might, bringing everything to life around me and scorching without mercy that, which we have rejected, reminding us of its power by freezing that which it has neglected."- verse of an ancient song.

This shall become the story of such cycle, when humanity grew weary again.

Saturday, June 02, 2018

Ruled by Darkness

Mankind is ruled by what one might call "The Dark Side". I'm not talking about "good" or "bad", but about what aspect of a simplified duality- that enables physical existence- has taken reign over us all. In order to be, something has to create and something has to hold on to that creation. Like a pendulum or the ticking of a mechanical clock, the process of existence goes through these two phases, roughly speaking. You could also imagine a cycle, where the first half of the cycle would rotate onto a new location, while the second half goes back to its origin or original orientation. This is likely the better visualization, because it is easier and more accurate, if we were to consider even the most fundamental process that makes up "the universe we are in and part of".
Just for the sake of this model, imagine the first half to be the "light" side, the creative force, the exploration of new possibilities, innovation, while the second half, the way back, adjusts the foundation accordingly to maintain the "home", so to speak. Considering the idea of total absence of everything before "the beginning", one could say that the origin was total "darkness", while the step into being was "the beginning" itself and as such the creation of "light". That makes the first half dedicated to the light and the second half dedicated to the darkness. Even as the origin then gradually shifts to where light has brought it, like if you were driving towards the light, you would see it. Looking back would be seeing the darkness, even if you stop before you were inside of darkness itself.
Anyway, the motive to maintain is equal to "looking back", while the motive to create turns the eyes toward the light.
Now, too few of us all understand mankind's own governing mechanisms, the construct humans (most likely, haha) have generated above society in order to manage it or "maintain" it. This construct, consistent of legal systems, trading and property or ownership, is above what we call "nations". It rules this game in which all are players, who subscribe to it by implied consent; meaning that those who do not voice their disagreement are considered to agree, even if they've never heard the question knowingly!
This is how mothers sign away (technically abandon) their own babies to the "king", who grants permission to these mothers to raise the child, unless the mothers do anything undesirable, at which point the child can legally be taken from them, since it is not theirs anymore anyway. But that's already a tangent.
My point is that the system that governs mankind acts in the nature of maintenance, the darkness, and not in the nature of the light, creation. This may seem perfectly logical to most of us, since we actually do not know it any different. Ideally, however, one could see the ideal in the form of balance. Shouldn't it be something that favors neither darkness, nor light, but simply observes and guides both processes?
Instead, it is all to easy to observe how the dark side perverts creation, holds back true innovation, the promotion of freedom and realization of free will (complicated topic to some!!!). It favors the holding on to its own traditional power, ready to sacrifice subjects (us), if "need" be.
To be clear, though, the process of being as we know it requires both sides. It is the very nature of existence. The mistake is simply the favoring of one side over the other. It asks for a certain kind of balance. It's not about absolute balance, because this would naturally result in stagnation, but instead it's about a gentle kind of rocking back and forth, so to say. The challenge is to find out how far it has to rock into one direction over the other and when should it reverse again?!
To me it appears as if we're about to hit the moment, when we have to begin looking towards the light again. Maybe those of us like me simply are still used to the light and have a hard time as the world rocks backwards, so to say. Maybe we find the answer simply when we ask this question to the world: Do you want to create, exploring new possibilities with the real wisdom we have already to work with or do you want to maintain, hiding away this ancient wisdom so that mankind remains oblivious to its own power and takes a backseat to existence?
Yes, yes, that's already a ruthlessly biased formulation of the question, but if you sum up what is going on in the world, you can realize that fear, suffering, anger and sadness are much easier to find than true joy and dedication with clarity and faith. This is so, because the dark side needs you to not create, to look back, to stand still. The very word "faith" has been perverted into a kind of "holding-on", holding you back, because you dare not challenge "faith". But faith really means to be unafraid, to have faith as you realize what you truly want to accomplish in life. It does not mean to literally adhere to dogma. There's a lot more to be said about the mechanisms of how we are being tricked into submission, but this article hopefully seeds a thought worthy of pondering over. It did to me!

Monday, June 06, 2016

Reclaim Yourself!

How late this is, how bent we are. I wished one could tell people to stop swallowing the lies and manipulations we are being fed. I still want to believe, that people will realize that media produces a much worse picture of the world than it actually is, simply because this is its method to project a certain orientation for how "they" want life to play out, hoping that mankind will catch on to it.
The kids don't really know. They seek orientation. Parents, in their right minds, are meant to provide it to them, but instead they are being sucked away into the ever growing pressure of surviving in a society, designed to take them away from family. Thus parents have to give up their children to organizations, meant to condition the next generation and deprive them of their real powers and confuse these poor souls so that the only way they can find answers is by asking, rather than thinking for themselves. Take away a reality that makes sense and a mind can't find answers within itself.

Are we really here? Are we really in a world where parents abandon their kids into something as harmful as gender confusion? Where is the harm in that you might ask. It's really kind of simple and has nothing to do with confined morals of religions or the likes. This is about sending these kids into a life of looking at themselves and listening to those, who support their uncertainty. It turns such supporters into controllers and the children into mindless, self-absorbed and distracted drones. Instead of finding out what tools they've been given in this life to actually become useful to the world around them in a way that makes them truly happy, they become preoccupied with grooming the delusion with which they were being infused and never find access to their true joy, to knowing that they are being loved for what they really are and to meet true appreciation for what they can really do.

An army of victims is being raised...not by their parents, but by the opaque powers that reveal only the means to their desires through media in all forms, through rules formed and imposed not to govern a healthy mankind in transition to growing greatness, but to misshape a future that justifies consequences that are in service of what ever the hell they believe has to happen.

Over all of this we so easily forget that we ARE the universe. Yes, we have the form of humans, we have the powers given to our manifestation and the ability to perform new and unique wonders as well as the mind to create a paradise of and for life. Only on our way there we will find answers to why we are what we are. They are given to us in our actions. But those actions have to be "true".

Whether you believe in a God or think reason defies such ideas, consider that everything that happens in the universe creates explanations for what caused it to happen, producing a massive chain of logic, which will adhere to its stabilized concept and continues to happen over and over again. This chain grows with every subsequent dimension, which doesn't get "bigger" in terms of physical size, but bigger in terms of complexity. This complexity manifests in the smallest of systems such as a brain in the physical world. It's conceivable that we represent the head of such chain of logic and our actions are meant to explain for why we are what we have become. This puts a pretty big responsibility in our hands. If we fail to make sense of our chain of logic, it cannot become a stabilized concept. But stability does not mean stagnation or holding on to rigid traditions of sorts. We have to consider the nature of our concept. It is our nature to innovate, to create, to change, to adapt, to reason, to combine lower and higher nature to receive power in the form of love, empathy and joy for our desires to act to the best of our abilities and ever growing understanding. We are meant to explore, we are meant to optimize life, not to ignore it, defy it or even destroy it. We are meant to discover nature in and around us to work symbiotically and intelligently not for a goal we would need to know, but for taking ourselves and our children ever closer to what it is we may be able to fulfill eventually. And it will not be a revival of old concepts or the maintenance of ancient hierarchies. Our power will not reflect greatness in the form of dominance over our own suppressed civilization, nor will that represent stability to the chain of logic in our trail. It would break it. But why would we allow that, if we knew better? And I do firmly believe we do know better.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

The Right Thing

You won't know what "the right thing" is for anybody else unless you let them show you.
You can't ever tell anyone what "the right thing" is for them except to let them show it to you.
You only ever can offer what you have to offer so that people can use it to discover what "the right thing" might be for them.

Everything has consequences, but if you define consequences yourself, you best be clear about your motives. If your motive is defined by the agenda of others, you must be clear about their motives. We have a lot of cleaning up to do in order to shake off the chains of contrived needs. As long as we keep things from each other for the sake of satisfying irrational desires, driven by blindness to the whole, our motives will never be clean nor clear, not even to ourselves. Even the genuine desire to be universally useful in the best way we can is often informed by ideas whose origin we are unaware of. In an ideal world we could just trust the authorities, but this is not an ideal world, even when Zen teaches us that the present state- or each moment- of the universe is perfect.

The word "Perfect" says nothing else than "Finished" or "Completed". Once any moment has manifested, this moment is completed and therefore "perfect" by definition. But that also indicates that each coming moment still asks for completion and our decisions now lead to the perfection of each next moment.

How, then, do we know what "The Right Thing" is?

If it was a puzzle, we'd first have to open the box. Once it is open, we have to see the pieces. Only when we recognize a piece we can lay it down and see where it fits. Some of them we can instantly recognize as fitting. Sometimes we feel like it might fit and try it out. But we can never move on, trying to push pieces together that don't clearly fit.
To do the right thing you have to be in a situation that is clear to you or follow your feeling that could lead to clarity. But you cannot move forward, if you force yourself into a situation that is fundamentally wrong and hope to ever enable yourself to the right thing in it.
"Free Will" is our power to find clarity and function outside of contrivance and without contrition. Label it a liability and you lose your humanity and your human potential. But "Free Will" can never lead to harm against anyone for then it is skewed by motives you have to detect and eradicate first. You only exist for the sake of all as you are but a part of all. Those of us, who are born as parasites won't ever know it and cannot feel remorse, but most of us are being pulled into just such a state, asked to act like parasites, even if we're far from that often not at all aware of it. If you find yourself depressed, unhappy and in a state of procrastination, you have not yet discovered where your free will is meant to take you, because you are meant to be useful to others in a way that brings joy to you. Now the big trouble we're having is that the pieces of humanities puzzle are quite dirty by now and it's hard to weed through the mud and find where you could fit. It takes a lot of probing sometimes, but you can be absolutely sure that there is such a piece and you will find a way to do "The Right Thing". Remember to become clear about your motives and to investigate the motives and agendas of those you chose to support! We have a lot to clean up about our own act, that's another certainty. Whether you're an employee, employer or a freelancer, only in the pursuit of clarity will you truly allow your Free Will to lead you towards ideal perfection.


Here's a little brainstorming on universal "becoming" again.

To set up this train of thoughts; there are two fundamental components to existence we commonly differentiate: matter and energy.
Matter appears to be the purpose to which energy contributes from our common perspective. We consider ourselves rather matter than energy. We identify ourselves with our body more often than with our mind, really. From our perspective there is a necessity of being matter in order to be ourselves.

However, both energy and matter are merely manifestations we recognize of the universal process, what ever it may be. Matter finds order to produce- or rather- transform energy into certain patterns, which are then directed in various ways to facilitate the creation or maintenance of matter itself. This procedure leads to ever more complex patterns for both matter and energy alike.

In our state of being we are convinced that the universe is essentially a container within which localities represent purpose and separate processes. These appear to pursue different and even seemingly unrelated tasks. Marooned on a planet somewhere in space we find ourselves, wondering about other beings somewhere else in the universe. Arguably that, too, has to be by design. But what I'm pondering about right now is a different idea altogether: Patterns.

Everything we can identify is a pattern, held in one way or another. Anything that would not be a pattern does not exist to us. But even the invisible that has any meaning to us comes in form of a pattern. A thought, however complex or chaotic, represents the manifestation of a pattern.

What if the universal process is essentially the formation of a certain pattern. Again this eludes to the classic: Order out of Chaos.
What if the energy pulsing about in our brains represents the building of patterns of energy.
Once we would find enough coherence collectively, we would enable ourselves to transform matter in such a way that it could lead to the next higher complexity of energy transformation the universe desires for its "becoming".
It's not too far a stretch, when I think about this, that the localities of matter in the universe are of no concern to the "final outcome", if that's a way to call it. If there was any truth to this, that everything is really just the motion of one agent, what ever that is, then all the cosmic pirouettes are part of dance that can have its climax in just one spot on the universal stage. All the macro patterns can find their perfect purpose in a completion of a micro pattern.

It's perfectly find, if you giggle about my potential insanity. I'm giggling a little myself, especially in anticipation of later revelations that shed light on my folly as of now, haha. But here's what I'm currently becoming aware of, however silly this may sound or be:

We are the universe. Everyone of us, so I believe, should recognize that he/she is the universe in form of who ever you are. Each one of us is a manifestation, desired and required by the whole of it. We are dumb and- at the same time- the greatest hope of existence, to lead the entire process to the next stage.
We have to tame our animal mind to overcome its lower-level imperative and recognize the higher power we truly are already. But taming does not mean shedding. Everything that ever was is build on and consists of everything that ever was. You can't take that away and hope to have anything left that could be new.
Thus, we have to work with our instincts, but not let them dominate us. Lead the way with what is superior to the basic needs, but furnish those basic needs, nourish them and value them. But it really is important to rise above them with your leading powers.

All these thoughts are not easy to have or hold. I'm having a hard time trying to express the full extend of them. But sometimes it's most important to hold on to the triggers of such thoughts, finding direction rather then waiting to know a destination.

We are very lost in foolish materialism, letting the fear of organizing factions of humanity pull us into our animal instincts to remain controllable rather than to find the higher use of our collective powers. As long as we are kept in fear about not being able to feed our lower-level "animal" needs, so to say, our focus is being pulled into them and away from our higher capacities. This way we are easier to control, certainly, but also we are held back from collectively rising up to our true universal function, hidden in our power to form the next dimension of energy patterns, which should then give rise to what ever pattern of matter is necessary to form the next dimension of the universe...or...ourselves for that matter.

It's a tough spot to be in, being a human being. You know that your body is not a sculpture, right? Matter constantly transforms in and out of being "you". But we disregard that completely and think we have to hold on to matter. Yet it never sticks and we'd be dead if it was. What we really hold on to is a method, a structure or set of instructions that keeps pushing elements into certain places and sorts them to function collectively in a certain way. Once an element has been used, it's being discarded. And that happens at every fraction of a second of each minute and so on... we're never the same in terms of what we "possess" in form of matter. But our mind has just about evolved to begin to come to terms with that. Many of us would still shake their head about it and find some excuse for why they wouldn't respect this thought as meaningful.

But it is not going to be some accidental recombination of DNA segments that will lead to the next evolution. Each step of evolution has been conscious to the given possibilities and circumstances and progressed from the cusp of the respectively highest states. That means that we now have to use our fully conscious powers to really introduce the next level of evolution. And we have to realize that we are not lost or left behind. We are the universe, we transform, we are each level and just now we become "more" conscious about ourselves. That's all. We are equipped to lose our fear and instead embrace our real power to connect "free will" the way it's been enabled to. Only when we can set our mind free, we can let go of fears that hold us back, but not just each individual itself. We hold each other back as we view each other as opponent, challenge or handicap, or object to use and so on... all the beastly thinking that confines us, hurts us, numbs us.

The tough spot we're in is that we've got nobody else to turn to for answers, just as we've managed to evolve questions. Who's God then, when we ask religion, but religion has tried to tell us long before we've lost all understanding of it thousands of years ago. God is everything altogether. In that sense we are the mind of God, the Ego in distress, as a clear thought can only come from all of us together. It's not a separate entity with desires about which we are not informed. As soon as we have understood how to function as a whole, we will find and meet God face to face, haha, looking at each other! :o)

As always, I could go on and on and I can't help but wonder, if anyone actually reads all this, thinks about it with me and maybe helps to let us find a direction and an approach to make it happen, make us truly link up and stop losing to a prior evolutionary state of ours.

Know thyself! Boy, oh, boy, that is a hint that goes straight to the source, long past our silly interpretations of it.

Love and Light 

Friday, January 25, 2013

Daily Sketch No.41 - breaking the spell...

Breaking the Spell 

It seems we only ever start to break free, I feel, bound by spells of convention which reach so deep into our being that it takes miraculous moments to make us sense those tiny, vicious tendrils, piercing our wish, poisoning our will. Hidden in plain sight they tell us what to believe, what to accept and what to dismiss. They are the foreign judges, ruling the extend of our liberty and they masquerade as ourselves. But they are not. Masters of manipulation they use our powers to distinguish between reason and folly and have us apply those against our own imagination. But there is no place for such distinction.

Inside of you is total freedom, truth untouched by doubt, not judged for viability, not ruled by any guidelines. Inside of you is the channel that tunes into infinity, home of us all, place of our birth, filled with images we can only begin to see, when we permit ourselves to fail the words we've learned, the values that were imposed on us, the measurements of what we've been taught was true.

Let go! Let yourself "lie", if that's how you thought your visions would be judged! Let "silly" ideas flourish, bloom, dance through your visions! Surrender to your inner, central eye!

I believe, it may take a long time before those images become sharper, more focused, before this sight expands to the rim of our own body's field and eventually beyond it. But with plenty of training, practicing to see in total darkness, light will come, will get brighter and eventually we may see a part of everlasting truth that is always with us and tickles the senses we will regain.
Love and Light to all of us!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Daily Sketch No.33


Without Limits there would be no form. A Beginning and an End are limits in themselves. Where they meet a cycle ends and begins. On each limit an inside ends and begins. But as with time such it is with space, where the limit only separates to distinguish a becoming from a having-been and not the "What" that permeates it all. This "What" is defined yet by its own limits, which cease to be for the "What" that permeates it beyond. As each cell within us has its limits, we permeate it and define ourselves beyond them. So our body has its limit to the outside, with which it is defined, but our purpose permeates it. The purpose of this body has its limits since it had a beginning and will have an end, but our Soul permeates it. Our Souls have a limit to define each of us as individual, but its purpose permeates it. Carry on to meet the face of God, which still would bring you up yet another limit and only the infinite permeates it. And thus it does.

What about breaking the Limits? What about acknowledging the Limits? What about recognizing them?

Is it the will of a cell that gives it its walls? Is it our will that gives us the limit of our skin? Is it our Souls will that distinguishes us from each other? Is it the will of the supernal Soul that splits it from the Infinite?

Who gives those limits and are they a blessing?

The great burden that was placed upon us was that we were given the power to impose limits, to make definitions and thereby to create form. While the Infinite has created everything out of nothingness by means of separating elements through limits, we organize ourselves together by means of limits. Done with the right intentions has us as a whole permeate our own limits. But if those limits push us apart or block the whole of us to link through those limits, then we corrupt this power vested in us. Equally, if we disregard the proper limits, we lose form. The key, I believe, is to embrace limitations, if we can permit ourselves to recognize the form they bring forth. Then we shall experience that it is love, which permeates those limits to bind us all together and directs the motion of this form, guiding us from our beginning to our end and permits God to permeate it all.

Daily Sketch No.32

Creation out of Nothing. Creation out of Everything. Those are the two major vertical polarities of existence. In a hubris worthy of apology I might phrase it like this: God created us so that we create God. Maybe a little more humble in nature:Where there was Nothingness, Everything became to turn Everything into the bridge to Nothingness again.
But that's not the point of today's sketch. This is about the role and nature of consciousness. It is the evolution of a thought, which still has to keep growing to confirm its own validity, but it's ripe to be shared, if only to inspire contradiction, diversification, acceptance or simply dismissal by all of us.
I come to believe that consciousness is purely aware with its key potential to widen that awareness and come to ever greater clarity about the roles of stages higher and lower as well as itself.
Consciousness is not creative, but aids creativity.
Consciousness is not analytical, but guides analysis.
Consciousness is not emotional, but regulates emotion.
Consciousness does not decide, but informs decision.
Consciousness has no action, but seeks correction through it, or stands to be judged for them.
It is the bridge, the heart, the core of what receives formation, wired to the supernal origin, wired to the dense realm of matter, but born blind, numb, deaf and mute, waiting to receive its lessons on Earth and its grades from Heaven.
What we are here is the only way in which consciousness evolves. Nowhere else can it change, receive new experiences and receive the devices to understand its own purpose. Like an infant it drops out of the womb of God, and like any being it has to learn to see, learn to walk, learn to speak and learn to understand. It does so, however, not within one life, but over the course of great many lifetimes in the material sphere.
Consciousness is the Soul, like human are you. Die now as a human and you will be born with the same degree of awareness only to suffer again until you can continue to evolve "consciously". Live as long as possible and with proper readiness to learn, so that you be granted a continuation based on your degree of awareness rather than a correction for your failings. All the teachings that sound like blind devotion are probably mostly misunderstood, because they are supposed to humble us in order to accept our duties with some clarity about what they really are for. Nothing is for ourselves, we do not exist for our sake, but we're given the grace of love and joy, desire and passion in sustainable form, letting us know that the right thing is a good thing. Mistakes are there to help us understand, not to cull us from the process by some harsh judgement. We are, if you will, product of a requisition, written in the method of God for the process of Existence. Therefore none of us will ever have to fear being destroyed as individual consciousness, but should embrace the choice to avoid the pain of stagnation that comes, if we roll through life blindly, selfishly and ignorant to others and thereby to the whole. The fruit of our labor is not relevant to God directly, but relevant to our function, which is relevant to God. We are aware of our labor, but often unaware of our function, because this we do not have to be. It might help us to understand more of this, but it is not a requirement, because we are created with the intrinsic power to function. Only our infantile confusion about the rewarding sense of joy and corrupting power of desire can have us ignore or even fight this power to function. But this I will leave to other sketches, those from before and those to come.

Brief Sketch on Soul and Bible

After I had realized the nature of soul and body, the true individual Self and its instrument, it became a deep part of my consciousness increasingly so day by day. Another part of my revelations included the understanding that it is our love and associated desires to the physical plane of existence that keeps us alive, but as the doctrine goes "as above so below" it is equally the love to our origin, our Creator, who or what is also our collective destiny, that sustains or maintains our sense of direction in life and a potential understanding of divine gratitude and appreciation.
So when I ran into this classic bible line again that goes, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'", I was somewhat baffled as to how well it made the distinction between, Soul, means of soul's communication with the physical incarnation (through the heart),  the physical instrument's body (your strength) and the physical instruments cognitive device (the mind) and the very important understanding that you can only truly love God, if you love all incarnations or members of life as the same, love your neighbor as yourself! Whether linguistically correct or splitting hairs, the " yourself" could be considered on a deeper level even more severe, realizing that you and your neighbor, meaning all of life, IS yourself. It also suggests rightfully that you cannot love yourself without loving your neighbor and- with any degree of awareness- this will also make you understand to love the Infinite, God, or which ever way your care to address the Most High causality of existence, everything in between and beyond.

I'm always a little sad that somehow non of the ancient deliveries cared to visualize those concepts explicitly, but simply assumed that you'll never understand the concept in its raw form and should at least act appropriately by being asked to, however coarsely. It isn't that everybody should be able to understand it in some scientific form, but that explanation should be easily available for those who cared.
Arguably, Qabalah is what provides access, if you happen to find to it, which was largely next to impossible for over 1000 years. Also, this may just apply to the "Christian" world, or Judeo-Christian world for that matter. Vedanta provides its own kind of access to what appears to be somehow almost scientific in some sense and does make it more explicit, regarding what we/you are in relation to the higher realms.
I found access because my soul literally dragged me into it over all these years and even decades for that matter. It's been pulling me and pushing me and juggled between prioritizing duties only to maintain a course that it wouldn't reveal to me fully until just a few years ago... or rather began to reveal. Now I just have to figure out what the true weight of my attention favors, awareness for myself to pursue a purpose known to me already or the sharing the path to the awareness as purpose itself. Why not all of it?

Anyway, there you have it... the Bible is "GEM"-packed with wisdom that tends to hide behind confusing and even objectionable story lines, images and dogmatic components. While in reality it really struggles to deliver to you a divine Truth not only undeniable, but fundamentally helpful.

Daily Sketch No.31

Unity of Heart and Mind

Once you begin to understand that body and mind are instruments to the soul, you begin to see that the unity of soul and mind does not refer to equal strength in decision making, but to accept the roles each have to play and- as a result- function thereby with confidence. The mind is not supposed to make any decisions. It is meant to receive and interpret reality to the soul and in return understand the direction of the soul and express it through proper interpretation of it. The mind is the first instrument, which in turn uses the body as instrument and even there it goes both ways, since the body utilizes the mind to do actions on its behalf.
The stream therefore goes something like this: soul<>mind<>body
Unity between all of those elements means that each accepts its role and does not claim false dominance. The soul has to accept that its first duty is to function in the physical world, which turns the soul into the instrument of God, or how ever you prefer to recognize the purpose giver, creator, ultimate receiver, eternal entity. I'm somehow sensing that I skip a few forces in between, but for now this should be enough.
That might add this portion to the stream of human existence: Infinite<>Soul<>mind<>body

Anyway, the core issue is that the ultimate unity turns the mind into an alert listening device that cares consciously to read the soul's command. We like to call the soul the heart, but the heart is merely the only way we distinctly sense the instruction of the soul. It makes, however, an excellent indicator for the origin of our inner direction. But it's important to recognize that the heart reflects a greater range of emotions, which may have their origin elsewhere at times.

Reason is important not to come to conclusions, but to properly interpret the physical reality so that it can be understood by us. Actions driven through reason only become truly useful, once we recognize the origin of the actions as being of the soul. Equally reason is meant to formulate the action requested by the soul.

Some people tend to favor their mind and skip their heart. Others even favor the body and skip both mind and soul. Only full unity can provide truly satisfying action and through this the real lesson for the soul to continue evolving. I believe that excuses are devices not just from one person to another, but very much internally a way of justifying a failure to reach unity.
Release yourself from former mistakes! Forgive without excuses! Embrace full unity of your faculties; body, mind and Soul! Know that all of these components make "You", not just the soul, just the mind or just the body. Without any of these components it is not you, but a part of you. To become the real and full you, you must strive for this unity!
It does not save you from making mistakes or does not turn you into a saint. It simply gives you the means to fully function to the best of your abilities and will give you confidence to be dutiful in your will.

Daily Sketch No.30

One of those trips...

Why is it a train of thoughts, when sometimes just one thought is its only passenger. Solitary, as some moments leave us, dreaming in a chair, falling into a single hand and walking through the warmth of being by yourself... and away. And as the world recedes again around us, it feels as though angels stand beside, making sure we know, pretending nothing but holding silence. And into the tearless cry of quietude slithers a tiny smile. A gift from a place not much higher than our own, but then above it all. It's where our home is at. Where we come from. Where we return to. Where we wait. From where we're called to go grow and given a mind, a body and a world to do so. Time after time. Here we are different. Here we are given time. Here we're given a chance to have all that and a chair to sit in. A moment to dream. A ticket for the train. And every time we send a thought onto the journey the train gets fuller.

Daily Sketch No.29


Yes, yes, I know, this may seem a bit provocative at first glance, but bear with me for a moment, please!
I believe the world would spontaneously improve dramatically, once people began to realize that all religious scripture is meant to educate, to teach with wisdom an understanding about our origin, our way of functioning along with social purposes and our common divine purpose. Except for the authors of these doctrines, nothing within them is or has the need to be historical. Once upon a time people may have had little difficulty to communicate through metaphors and allegories, would probably talk about their morning by anthropomorphizing the grass, the sun and their breakfast cereals. But at some point this overt power of language became occult and words themselves became content more than their contextual meaning. And through it people had lost the teaching component and substituted it with laws to submit to by following literal instruction as opposed to comprehending their ideas.
And when the Jews fell deeper and deeper into such misunderstanding and nowhere was something to be found that could clarify the nature of scripture, Jesus was made up to be far more explicitly transcendental and spiritual in language. Yet, even that wasn't enough, since soon that, too, wasn't explicit enough and the meanings drifted, even fell fairly straight into the occult.
And when the world woke up for a brief second during the renaissance, they only figured out that the church was full of it and started to turn their back on the whole thing. Scripture became silly fairy tales of some arbitrarily oppressive nature and science was the only relevant truth seeking to seriously consider. And off went the baby with the bathwater- or what ever that expression was.
But, due to the infinite wisdom of existence, groups somehow maintained this then occult information in every major religion and slowly but surly it began to surface again until we find ourselves today, overwhelmed by revelations about the brilliance of ancient scripture, whether exposed to it and understood or by the translations through modern esoterica and the likes. But that which each religion had turned into its dogma somehow still is a tabu of some kind. If you bounce around and reveal that Jesus never was a living person, Moses a delivery method and Abraham a concept, you best wear good protection. Yet, when it comes to Adam and Eve, the picture it represents is probably the closest to historical relevance, even if the dates are obscure and pulled into great nonsense by pretty much all organized religions. They represent not just a prototype of human form, but they represent the only whole that we all are parts of. It's about as metaphysically historical as it gets, I'd assume, but people probably have an easier time to understand that than all other corrections.
Trust me, I'm biting my lips the whole way through, knowing of my arrogance to just write all this with such confidence, but whether it is true or not, it should emphasize the educational power, relevance and truth that one can expect to find in ancient scripture of all religions, once examined for its symbolic transmissions. This does benefit greatly from having a key, an anchor from which to observe the presented images and processes explained in scripture. I believe that one of the most brilliant aids one can find is the Kaballah's tree of life. Each point, each Sephirah, represents a step in the process of existence and is derived from the combined knowledge of ancient understanding. The organization of the tree alone creates a symbolism that helps to find all major religious symbols and assign meaning to them that maintains consistency with the information presented in the texts. I'm still in the process of studying the Sephirod, combined with the Hebrew alphabet and hopefully at some point the language, too, in hopes to encounter more of the wisdom that led to the concept of the tree of life.
But that, too, only reveals some aspects, even if probably most or all are truly relevant to our present state. My own key is a bit different and somehow even simpler, due to the fact that it is based on our present way of thinking, observing through something closer related to a scientific contemplation and observation. However, most important about it was that it gave me a key to the levels of existence that are discussed in scripture. And through it I began to embrace realms within and beyond our own. I embrace feeling them, carefully opening myself to observe and see, if I can see and then what. I hope to let this light come in and shine onto our daily issues, recognizing more and more the nature of our material world and its processes. And I can tell you that it already illuminates aspects that I'm deeply grateful about seeing now.
Chiefly amongst them is the simple fact that our material realm overwhelms us, swallows our senses and demands great attention. To transcend those things virtuously, meaning not to abandon our portion of reality while experiencing even more profound elements of existence that are not immediately revealed into our consciousness, requires some great strength thus far, or rather as far as I can tell thus far. I also must conclude that there is a reason for it and it should not be dismissed. Our actual, functional or active purpose lies within this realm and not in any other, even if the result of it all is intended and will fulfill its purpose for the highest of realms.

The First Morning Alive...

Ok, ok, the esoteric component of this is, ehm...well...deeply profound. I'm sending a prayer and my love into their lives along with this little bit of memory. I helped them into this world and to their own little song, but other than that I'm ashamed I couldn't keep them with me. At least they are alive and well and will learn the rules of the street from mommy.

When does something become responsibility and how much wisdom is in fighting against the rules and rage of a furious landlord couple. I surrender to the will of local wisdom, even if it still escapes me somewhat. At least they cared enough to help me find them a place right away with a good neighbor. But I still feel underwhelmed by my inability to protect them all the way. Great encouragement to buy a home soon! Then I shall learn where the local wisdom comes from, hahaha. Oh dear...

Daily Sketch No.28

Well, today I'm making my first musical daily sketch. It's been a long time since I've made music with natural instruments, playing them in live on my keyboard and not just "painting" the sequences as I've done for years now. I'm still a bit rusty, but it's such a tremendous fun for me, I'm just happy right now. I hope you don't mind me bumping it straight into my daily philosophy sketches, but that's really where this belongs in my mind/heart/soul. Like a public journal of my journey I include this clumsy climb back onto the saddle of less geeky doodling, even while it's a bit out of control, still. In some ways it illustrates a lot of how I feel right now, floating a all this wealth of fields to study, observations, sensations, dreams and contemplations about the source, the unfolding, the manifesting, the realizing and the layers of speculations made by mind, by letting go and reconnecting to what was, what is and what will be.
When we look at free will, we assume that it is our permission to deviate from the great plan, but since it is part of the plan, it cannot really deviate. Instead it is the great plan experiencing itself and turning itself into the platform of correction and rejuvenation. Everyone of us represents the Will of God, in that regard, but our minds control the intensity of it coming through and may block its power due to memories of experiences that were not our own (the theories we're being taught, the images we see, the things we read). I would make that proposal that once we let go of purely foreign ideas and fallback through all the real experiences we've had into the sphere of our soul, away from our mind, we might find our genuine instructions and directions from the supernal source of our existence.
Why talk about all this?
Well, I'd imagine that I'm not the only one, who wonders every now and then, why such massive majority seems to think or accept things so very different from what we think, or how it could be reasonable to assume that one person could have a suggestion that deviates from the course of humanity at this time. I think that if certain feelings, recognitions and ideas are carefully carried through examinations for their validity, sincere altruism and diligent study, what ever becomes of them will be a genuine representation of God's Will, while it will only then truly gain hold and execution, once this is being recognized and adopted by an ever increasing group of people or rather peoples. Therefore the judgement is not yours to make, yours is the contemplation and all the due diligence.
There's naturally far more to this topic, but that's also what the comment section is for.... :o)

Daily Sketch No.27

On Religion

Religion, even if this sounds quite simple and obvious, is the attempt to connect the instrumental mind with the superior mind, or divine mind, the true Self. As we are being tossed into the water, our survival instincts allow us to learn swimming, but something has to give us direction, not only to swim back to safety, but even to use our ability to swim and dive for purposes beyond survival. Religion, however, provides direction to the shore and gives us a map of the ocean and the land. It also tries to explain to us that we are given all the choices to operate based on the best of our abilities within this world, but offers itself as source of orientation, should we somehow get lost on the open sea or even, if we're afraid to go into the water again.
Scripture, even if it is challenging to make sense of its allegory and symbolism, is offered as a key to open this sometimes seemingly closed door between our material reasoning faculties and the source of righteousness beyond them. With every attempt we make to understand the messages of ancient lecture, we gradually open this door wider and wider. Beyond ourselves is the very real concept of existence, the Self that is closest to the real meaning of all finality and it teaches us that there is no "us", but only One device, one entity that spread out and shuffles itself to reorganize the fragments of the divine structure into what shall become the new bridge within the Infinite. None of us is not part of all of us and our duty is to refine the perpetuation of this procedure with ever more satisfactorily qualities.
While seemingly all our time on Earth appears as the highest priority, its purpose can be corrupted by confusing it with being the only priority. It is, though, nothing but the means to an end from which our instrumental mind may not draw any conclusion of or about which it simply doesn't need to know anything of. But to realize this can help to put things back into perspective, to learn that the importance within life is not found within life, but outside of it, beyond it, transcending what our five senses offer us as definition. We are given great powers to operate within this life and- much as itself- it is all a matter of choice and dedication.
So, once the key is turned and the door begins to open, you may begin to appreciate the privilege and powers that are given to you, and you need to find and believe in the path you can pursue, the direction that comes to you naturally and rely on its merit, as it is not for the one body that is carried by the fragment of the universal soul that you represent as a human, but it is for the merit of all life, all fragments, humanity, the kingdom of life, the whole finite universe and eventually the Infinite itself.