Goxo - 017

A little study I've made last night, entertaining enough to post it, I thought. It ended up feeling more purposeful than it actually has been, but that's just like it felt to wake up after only a few hours of sleep this morning. So here it is, yesterday's reflection on todays projection. Or should I reverse this? Anyway...

Goxo - 016

Reapest

like an illness of a wish,

leading only to directions,

before the place that can't be seen

stands tall the wall so clearly felt.

light is shed, if dim or brightly

over places known so well.

if by choice or only slightly

it's this light to lead the way.

English? I don't know, I don't care, it's an impulse poetry coming basically nearly out of nowhere and therefore with a certain authority that I respect for some reason. As my success in changing life's rhythm to normal hours begins fading again, my morning sketches turn into afternoon sketches again. But at least I feel like I could be in control. A very welcome illusion!

Goxo - 015

Just a little hair painting test...I do such things from time to time. Something I observe inspires me and I try to reproduce the system or trait I thought to have recognized. The character is just nonsense and not a portrait of any actual person, although it looks like a plausible and nightmarish caricature of possible daughter of mine, haha....please, don't let it ever match that one...and if, at least I have a present for her 30's birthday then...which might have to come with the inheritance by that time, I'm afraid.

(journal: well, it's past 2am in the morning despite the fact that I hardly drank two cups of coffee today...it's like I'm pulled into the night by some uncontrollable force...or a project that really costs me a piece of my spiritual well-being...who knows...)

Goxo - 014

Fearless...and slightly cold, I would assume...goes he who is called "who am I" into the hazy maze of ambiguity found in the forest far far away from the outside world. Well...then...happy trails!

Goxo - 013

I was going to be sleeping already, but why ever I've decided to keep rendering instead...I really don't exactly know. One thing's for sure: It wasn't for this crappy sketch. I'm too tired, which occasionally isn't too far from madness or other types of mental disfunctions. Curious, actually, because just before that sort of state a the illusion of a certain type of clearity appears to be liberating everything outside the current intellectual focus...whereby...rather spiritual focus at this hour...arite, before I'm losing it altogether...gnight...

Goxo - 012

...inspired by a thought...

Just for a moment - stop asking questions about yourself! Ask a question about the next person you see, the next animal, next plant, rock or even piece of plastic near you. Use all the knowledge you have to answer the question yourself, too! And while you do that, just listen!

Goxo - 011

Almost forgot about posting this...today's arbitrary unfinished landscape. I went on another imaginary exploration again and thought about mildly surreal elements, yet, I suddenly became too lazy and even went away from it...now I just thought "why not posting it as it is" and there it is...I might change it a bit later...

(journal purposes: woke up 11:00am...too late for my taste now, but yeah...OH, roasted green coffee beans for the first time, using popcorn popper, which instantly melted...but great coffee what shall i say!)

Goxo - 010

A late morning accompanies a certain type of numbness, that somehow leads me into this arbitrary landscape mood, but still with enough motivation to sketch it out somewhat rapidly. I was spending more time looking at it for the purpose of composing at a different level of intuition. The previous sketch had a similar, whilest a lot more spontaneous motivation. This time I was actually spending an hour with the sketch. One that flew by in it's first and larger part and in the last minutes felt like it's dragging on. Anyway, it's just another exploration and I'm not yet entirely sure what new experience it gave to me. Probably due to the still present numbness....hmmm....nothing a few cigarrettes and coffees won't be able to fix....

Oh ja, I almost forgot, part of the study was inspired by a painting I recently saw at the Norton Simon Museum in Pasadena, which reminded me of my favorite approach to keep it all lose except for the major foreground element that is as tight as can be....kind of. It leads to a much more quickly composition and is a lot less concerning along the way, I think. Anyway...that's that...why would I get tired again now? Hmmm...maybe it is just a boring landscape after all...hehe...argh

edit: I woke up a lot happier today and felt like looking at that painting again just now and couldn't resist to adjust the tree a lot and also decided not to crop into the image...it's just a sketch for crying out loud, so what! =P

Goxo - 009

Ah, I've gotten a little sloppy already and missed out to post something for all of yesterday, I think...hmm....it'll certainly become progressively less as the novelty factor of this blog fades away for me, but.... for now....here's one I just did!

(for journal purposes, I woke up 10am, which feels like is going to become the standart time for me, but I don't want it....I want to get back to 6am, which is far more beautiful. Again, I have to force some more discipline upon myself!)