Tuesday, September 11, 2007

so easy...

Hey, this is my blog and I can write what ever I want. How beautiful. I want to share this with you, although this could be considered rather personal, but what the heck.

It's in the middle of the night and I find myself sitting on my balcony wanting to talk to god. It's so much easier to believe in god sometimes, so much easier to let there be a religion. Honestly, I think we are simply not ready yet to live without a god. Science, knowledge and even reality aside, our weakness brings us straight to the powers beyond us and how beautiful is it to find a person at the other end. Some religious people want to deny it a little bit, the idea that even they picture god as a person. A higher power, a being of sorts, the creator. I honestly don't care, it's much rather like speaking to my father or a father to us all. What wonderful savety, what wonderful retreat. And I always find myself repeating the same word three times to begin my conversation with him: Sir, sir, sir. Like I'm tapping on god's shoulder, asking for a little attention. Naive? You know, yes. It's what we are, because all the atheism in the world as of now is still nothing but a desperate denial. We want to know, we want to be real and life in a world we understand. Floating through space, the universe, which we accept to know only little of, yet, science and awareness gives us so much security. But at the end, if we're really true to ourselves, don't we find ourselves speaking to god every now and then. Even while we smile at ourselves doing so.
If we do not ruin our world, if we not ruin our justification to exist in it, we will grow and one day we may not need to turn to a god anymore. But not just yet, not yet.
See, and I'm kind of laughing at myself right now, but god is the almighty, the one that listens at anytime of the day, at any place and for every reason. Within us and around us, where ever we want to feel his presents. Yes, yes, you can say her presents just as well, but that's nothing but a game. It doesn't really matter. What matters is that I've shared with you a moment of sincerity just out of the deep dark blue of the night.

God bless! :)

10 Comments:

Blogger kris said...

Well Dear Taron,

Ain't that just a glimps of a wonderfull creative mind riddled with a unawnserable question, the only anwser to GOD is us all. without us all there is no one on the other end whome you can tap on the shoulder.

you create you form as do we all.

Anubis Nox

1:01 AM  
Blogger Piz said...

I admire you... I admire your humbleness and humanity... I admire your will to condivide that deeply reflection...

Your
Piz

12:36 PM  
Blogger Wayne Robson said...

In an ideal world we would all be able to post thoughts such as yours without fear of ridicule or retribution.

So many talking points in one post... ;)

PS Glen S. says hi.

5:14 PM  
Blogger Taron said...

I might be making it very easy for me to be sincere, because I only write when I truely feel there is something I want to say or share. It's not unlike anything else I put out, looking at the things I have flying around here without having released them. Actually, funny enough, it's not too much stuff that I never posted, hmmm. Anyway, formulating thoughts, putting them into words, is not necessarily an easy thing to do. Often the process of translation corrupts the truth piece by piece. To me it is almost like forgetting about language, ignoring gramatic and conventions and simply focusing on the meaning, relying on how I speak to myself, so to say. I disregard the prospect of ridicule for various reasons. First of all, most kinds of ridicule are purely reactive. Like someone was skimming over a text and found keywords that provoque a response. "god" is a fantastic word in that regard. However, that means the person, who couldn't contain him/her-self didn't care to go a bit deeper into the content of a message. Second, I think the disrespect and ignorance to resort to ridicule after having faced any degree of sincerity of someone else is highly immature. But I believe that immaturity is a label for someone, who can still be hoped for to grow up at some point.
However, fear should never be a handicap, but a tool to refine your own exposure. This refinition should never lead to deception, because that's the kind of weakness that oozes like blood out of you, after you've hurled yourself into the sea of sharks out there, hehe. Once you can guarantee to yourself, that you've been true to yourself, regardless as to how vulnerable it might make you, it could be something of value for others. Particularely if it has the power to encourage someone, inspire or even lead to any larger degree of personal freedom. We have a tremendous privilege to share our revelations, worries and curiosities online. I'd almost want to say it should be an obligation to take advantage of it, because this is what can really help us all to grow!

...yes, yes, I know it's somewhat idealistic, particularely looking at all the sad nonsense out there and those kids, who are so distorted by all the crap they're made to consume these days. But that's a different topic... :}

9:20 PM  
Blogger Eric said...

You've made me curious from what I though of you to who you are based on comparing your subject matters to your thoughts?

I've just completed you DVD training and find your humor very kind. This blog post is also very open in a direction that I find myself.

Please take this question as a sincere kindness and not a harsh abashment:

I from time to time have a "cool" perturbed idea for a character but in not wishing to let this grow from or in my I let it go. You on the other hand very skillfully expose these thoughts. Without a feeling of justification could you explain how you've come to feel for the expression of them?

I've always look at it as as Star Wars mythos analogy: The "dark" side gives power quicker but stunts while the "light" side is slower but continues.

I find you humor and in sites very comforting and am just trying to understand why (like so many, though you do it so well) you explore these subjects.

I hope this is proceeved humbly as it is given.

-Eric

7:43 AM  
Blogger Eric said...

Sorry I just wanted to clarify in saying "subject matter" I'm referring to your art and in "thoughts" I'm referring to you words :)

And I do admire you skill and level of detail 8) I just wonder what you think about you own subject matter. Could you tell us about how you precieve it?

4:10 AM  
Blogger Taron said...

Hi Eric,

I'm sorry it took me so long to even check into my blog again, but finally I got it back. My old web-machine is still offline, but anyway, here we go.

Thank you so very much, I'm really happy to see such a response. I've always had this theory that simplicity is the real source of power and honesty is the most direct way to simplicty. With this in mind I could've only hoped to receive permission by others through a good reception of my works and of what I'm saying. Since I can't accept to compromise, when it comes to revealing a personal truth, I never really saw any choice there.

The only way we as humans can truely benefit from each other on a deeper level- and therefore a more useful one- is by sharing each others realities. While some may claim that denial could have us live in a fictive personal reality, if anyone of us digs for our real core, from which our real answers emerge, we find information that is of highest value. I believe that even the process of finding and digging has a powerful impact on oneself. Life is easiest in sincerity. I also believe that deep within us is a lot of hillarious material and humour comes from the process of guiding our personal truth through the bizarre madness of what we've experienced and have or have not learned.

As for my subject matters, well, it's explorations into an understanding for alternate realities. What makes something appear real and what suggests a depth beyond the supervicial. Details are the letters and words of what the picture wants you to read. The support or contradict expressions of a face to tell a story with greater precision. Most of the time I let things flow out of me, transform impulses and surrender myself to ideas that seemingly evolve by themselves. I guide it here and there and depending on the situation the strength of my conscious influence is stronger or weaker. It's almost as if the subject matters simply reveal themselves to me, you know. Very rarely I do something with a strong deliberation. Often those are rather comedic or mildly critical to social or society based situations. "People", my little short, is however an example for an message that simply revealed itself to me. An opportunity I simply couldn't pass. It's been a shockingly minute premeditation.

Well, again, I'm sorry it took so long, but I hope I could answer some of your questions.

Thanks everyone, of course, and I hope I get to resume my blogging sometime soon! A lot of things on my mind these days and a big urge to simply create something again and toss it into the open! :)

3:27 AM  
Blogger pluMmet said...

Thank you so much for the response :)

And for sharing your personal reality :D

I do believe that the shadow is as important as the light I just handle them differently then each other as I feel they have different needs.

You inspire me! Thank you...

3:45 PM  
Blogger TonyC. said...

Hello again old friend! Hope you are enjoying life.
Tony C

4:53 PM  
Blogger MDL said...

yay, a new entry!
*reads*
greetings from Budapest, your tetris pal

3:11 PM  

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